[Shakes his head and sits down on the floor with his arms around his legs.] I don't know.
I hate feeling divided between four different worlds, Taisa. My father, my brother, you and Jii-jii, and the dead. Maybe I'm not adult enough for this after all. But you're the only one I feel like I can be all of me around and that's confusing. I shouldn't, you know? We should be enemies and I should just keep you away from the rest of my life and worlds and that should just be it. And I know it's even harder on you as a marine and that's no good either.
Everyone worries I'm the one who'll be hurt, but I'm the one always hurting you. Maybe it's preemptive. I don't even know.
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I hate feeling divided between four different worlds, Taisa. My father, my brother, you and Jii-jii, and the dead. Maybe I'm not adult enough for this after all. But you're the only one I feel like I can be all of me around and that's confusing. I shouldn't, you know? We should be enemies and I should just keep you away from the rest of my life and worlds and that should just be it. And I know it's even harder on you as a marine and that's no good either.
Everyone worries I'm the one who'll be hurt, but I'm the one always hurting you. Maybe it's preemptive. I don't even know.